Comfort Zone<3

People are always encountering some sort of trouble . Whether it's bullying , abuse , or hard times . Everybody knows it . 

I went to a private school from kindergarten to 3rd grade. I was alone cuz I lived around no kids AT ALL. I was officially the freak. I didn't know what to do. The bullying began. A boy would push me into the street, pull my hair, push me down, tell me I was unimportant, say I should die, and hit me. I hoped things would get better. Nope. I was transferred to Hillsboro school in 4th grade. I was soon singled out again. I ate alone, sat alone, played alone, and cried alone. Nobody would help me with the homework. Nobody bothered to say one word to me. They would see me walking and scream "here comes the disease!!" I was not marked As a human. I wanted the pain to go away. In 5th grade I would follow groups around, hoping they would let me join in. No. I got a "get outta here you diseased freak!!" I would run away in tears. My first friend in 4th grade was starting to hate me. In 6th grade I had more people to talk to. They would talk to me and I would be glad to have someone. The bullying was still going on. In 7th grade, I wanted to die. I would be pushed into lockers, doors, and my locker would be trashed. I got beat up alot. Pushed down, and made fun of for liking someone. It was cuz I wore basketball shorts and baggy shirts. Guys called me lazy, worthless, unwanted, trash, ugly, and fat. I hoped it would go away. In 8th grade I was known for my artistic talent but bullied by classmates and 7th graders. Still called the awful names, I learned to live with it. It was a daily routine. This year, I started dating. I've been called a whore, slut, bitch, cunt, and skank.. I began cutting. My dressing is better. I play sports and have good grades.. My cutting is the only way to releive the pain.
My friends from my old school? Never keep in touch. One summer afternoon, my old friend bailey and her new friend call me and would say I masterbate, I would be called rude names like: asshole, bitch, whore,cunt, slut ,skank, fucker, non-virgin, alcoholic, smoker, fatass, loser, unwanted, and unloved. My pain was unbearable.
This year. I have though about suicide thousands of times. Wanting to get rid of the pain, but people help me through it. Being bullied isn't fun. It hurts the person and it hurts their feelings. I was affected by bullying and it made me the person I am today. I am a:
Loser
Bitch
Fatass
Original
Loud
Open
Creative
Loner
And
A friend who understands. I have cut until my friend Ryan told me no more. I am trying to stop cutting and its hard, but if I stop, maybe I might be succesful.
-Bridgett Madden